Gone

About ten years ago,my mother had to go in for a routine medical procedure that went wrong and she died. I never believed that was really the cause of her death.
I believed she saw it as her chance to release herself from this planet, she saw out pacing the standards that were engraved in her as a little girl.
My mother was gentle and kind, she didn't know how to cope with the world the way it is now. She didn't know how to cope with her children growing up in this world.
She always felt that she should be different parent then who she was. She felt she should be tougher then what her heart was.
How can you be, other than what your heart is, and survive!?
She hadn't figured that out. I guess the pain was too great!
I truly hope she is now somewhere nice!